Today I Felt...
| Opportunity
To identify a theme, idea or topic to explore over the course of 100 consecutive days and commit to iterating on that idea every day.
| Outcome
I decided to visualize my emotions everyday and use creative software to do it. The majority of the visualizations are made in Cinema 4D with some others created in creative code and Adobe Illustrator.
The 100 days for this project run from Jan 4, 2017 to April 17, 2017. You can also see all days in the original Tumblr blog here.
*please give this page a second to load, there are (literally) 100 gifs that need to render*
Day 100: Today I Felt… COMPLETE
I did it. I actually fucking did it! En las palabras del gran Gustavo Cerati: GRACIAS… TOTALES.
Day 96: Today I Felt… Restricted
First day of amazing weather in NYC and I have to be indoors finishing my thesis, with too many balls in the air. So cloooooose.
Day 92: Today I Felt… Taunted
So close yet so far. These might be the longest three weeks of my life.
Day 88: Today I Felt… Frustrated
I’ve spent all week working on a piece of code that I now have to re-write into more complicated convoluted code because Instagram sucks.
Day 84: Today I Felt… Cloaked
Fully wrapped in the thesis madness. It’s a sprint now this last month. I’m not ready to go back to the real world.
Day 80: Today I Felt… LikeShuffling
Getting a bunch of stuff ready to go Boston tomorrow to demo our VR Project “When We Die” at the Harvard Divinity school. Excited for the opportunity but lots to do!
Day 76: Today I Felt… Detached
Embracing the art of letting go
Day 72: Today I Felt… Startled
I blinked and we’re on week 8 and the quick and dirty show for thesis is next week. What happened to time?
Day 68: Today I Felt… like catching up
Spring break is over. Back to work!
Day 64: Today I Felt… anticipation
I keep putting myself in these situations, but sometimes I need to.
Day 60: Today I Felt… thoughtful
User testing some very interesting questions and things for thesis today. Trying to make sense of the deep truths I’m being privy too. I have a good feeling about this.
Day 56: Today I Felt… anxious
Thesis midterm is today and decided to overhaul my presentation with two hours to go. Not the best move, on top of everything else.
Day 52: Today I Felt… wavy
Spent all day on a boat today going from island to island and eating the freshest sea food you can imagine. This is the life.
Day 48: Today I Felt… confused
Too many emotions. Too much to process.
Day 44: Today I Felt… apathetic
Wasn’t really feeling it today. Couldn’t really get into it and while I really like the outcome, the animation is choppy and I should’ve taken more time to tweak it. Funny how my two ‘meh’ days have come out nicely lol.
Day 40: Today I Felt… hopeful
Got my thumbs up for my thesis application. Still lots of work to do, just need to nail down the rest. One down, lots more to go!
Day 36: Today I Felt… inspired
Felt inspired by one of Esther’s 100 days and decided to try and emulate the brushstroke feeling. I’m loving what everyone is doing in the class!
Day 32: Today I Felt… sick
I have a cold and I’m feeling pretty rotten, so I wanted to make something beautiful to counteract how I feel. I’m also becoming more interested in textures and lighting and wanted to try out making my own texture. I’m pretty pleased with the result!
Day 28: Today I Felt… circling
I feel like I'm going in circles in regards to thesis. I’m hoping to break out of my cycle and make some progress soon, before the anxiety takes hold.
Day 24: Today I Felt… appeased
Had a great conversation with Rebecca Lieberman about my thesis and I’m feeling better about it. Slowly but surely I feel like I’m narrowing onto something!
Day 20: Today I Felt… rushed
Been working on thesis all day, blinked and it’s almost midnight. So I used one of Rune’s examples on motion, tweaked it and called it a day. Need to finish that presentation for tomorrow. Welcome back to grad school.
Day 16: Today I Felt… social
Having happy hour drinks with my sister, and then meeting two friends for dinner and drinks later on. Getting my social game on before classes start again on Tuesday.
Day 12: Today I Felt… warm & fuzzy
I’ve had a weekend full of laughter and time with some of the most amazing friends life has granted me. I’m a romantic, and this is how I feel inside right now <3
Day 8: Today I Felt… medicated
Haven’t been to the doctor in almost two years and today I knocked out four different appointments to get checked up. Lots of time staring at sterile walls, but now I’m set for the year.
Day 4: Today I Felt…frozen
A huge snowstorm w/ wind was unleashed today in NYC plus the fact that my animation of this frosting cube was going to take around 15 hours to render. Instead, you get the image of the final product because I ran out of time. C’est la vie!
Day 99: Today I Felt… Intensified
Can you feel the energy in the air?! can you taste it? I can cut it with a knife. D-day tomorrow!
Day 95: Today I Felt… Busy
So much to do, so little time!
Day 91: Today I Felt… Amplified
Finally got my code working and made a dent on my 100 days. YES! Finally getting my momentum back.
Day 87: Today I Felt… Readjusting
The hard way. Took a step back, gotta keep pushing forward.
Day 83: Today I Felt… Palpitating
Feeling the anxiety of this last month of thesis rising and building up. Almost there.
Day 79: Today I Felt… Like leveling-up
Quick & Dirty show is coming up. Time to step it up and deliver!
Day 75: Today I Felt… Annoyed
At this damn exercise today that refused to work and I ended up hacking something together that I’m not really happy with, and at my own choices and naiveté when I should know better.
Day 71: Today I Felt… Poppin’
Now that thesis is set, it’s time to figure out the specifics and narrow down to the three winners. Lots of ideas brewing in my brain!
Day 67: Today I Felt… gelatinous
Getting back on my feet but still a little wobbly. Just gotta give time some time.
Day 63: Today I Felt… collaborative
Eve asked me to make something for her thesis site. I animated this “C” that’s supposed to go with the word “captology.” If she likes it, it’ll be on her site, so I guess she’s my first client!
Day 59: Today I Felt… cloistered
Part of the process. Taking a step back to continue to move forward.
Day 55: Today I Felt… like adjusting
Coming back to school and adjusting back to real life. These days off were so needed, and SO helpful. I guess what they say is true: “The cure to everything is salt water: sweat, tears or the sea.”
Day 51: Today I Felt… fresh
Spent all day at the beach with my friends, forgot all my troubles, and now I’m off to dance the night away. This change of scenery came at the perfect time.
Day 47: Today I Felt… fragmented
Finding my way back to myself.
Day 43: Today I Felt… frenzied
Got my new x-particles plugin for Cinema 4D and got a little over excited trying to basically do every single tutorial I found. I had to rein myself in and do a really basic one to get started… but just you wait!
Day 39: Today I Felt… revelatory
One of my oldest friends is in town visiting for the weekend. Not a lot people know me like her and I do with each other.
Day 35: Today I Felt… dizzy
too much to do, not enough time!
Day 31: Today I Felt… BREAKTHROUGH!
I concept mapped my idea with Zoe today and I think I had a breakthrough (can you tell I’m excited?). I now have a question, I’m clearer on the form I want it to take, and I gonna start thinking of experiments to start rapid prototyping my idea. Onwards and upwards!
Day 27: Today I Felt… stochastic
As in random. I have very mixed feelings about my thesis, keep going back and forth and couldn’t really focus on one thing to do today. I also needed to get my NoC assignment done, so might as well kill two birds with one stone.
Day 23: Today I Felt… meta (as in self-referential)
Doing my 100 days project during my 100 days class. I felt this word suited today very well, although I’m not that jazzed with the outcome. Oh well, on to the next day.
Day 19: Today I Felt… scattered
Lots of things to do, lots of things to think about, lots of things to prepare for. Need to figure out a bunch of stuff.
Day 15: Today I Felt… familiar
Felt uninspired to do C4D today so decided to go back to my first true love, Illustrator. I love patterns and repetition, so I figured I would do something with that.
Day 11: Today I Felt… tipsy
My friends are in town to celebrate one of our friend’s bachelorette weekend - pretty self-explanatory, I hope. Don’t love the way this turned out, but I’m behind with my posts and need to move on.
Day 7: Today I Felt… divided
With this ‘new year’ before me sinking in, I’ve been thinking about a lot of things and I’m not quite sure how to feel about a few. (I’m also late with the post, but I actually did do this yesterday!)
Day 3: Today I Felt… sleepless
I don’t know what happened, but I basically woke up at 4am and could not go back to sleep. I kept coming in and out of sleep until around 8am when I just decided to get up.
Day 98: Today I Felt… Goosebump-y
I’m both excited and terrified to finish this class and this program. So much uncertainty and excitement all in one place.
Day 94: Today I Felt… Overwhelmed
Overwhelmed, but keeping my shit together.
Day 90: Today I Felt… Tense
Banging my head against a wall with this code. I’ll figure it out, but I’m having growing pains.
Day 86: Today I Felt… Blooming
Thesis is coming along and starting to take shape! Getting closer to that finish line.
Day 82: Today I Felt… Exhausted
Came back from Boston at 4am last night and have a ton to do today. This did not come out like I wanted AT ALL, but honestly, I’m too tired to even care. On to the next day.
Day 78: Today I Felt… Lethargic
Had a late night last night and not feeling too hot today. Gotta snap out of it and get to work.
Day 74: Today I Felt… Collective
Couldn’t figure out my word for today so did the thing without the word. Asked a bunch of people what they thought it was and I got different answers every time. What do you think this feels like?
Day 70: Today I Felt… like constructing
Gotta figure out the details and logistics of this thesis whole thing. The countdown has begun!
Day 66: Today I Felt… enlightened
Clarity. Stings so good.
Day 62: Today I Felt… eroded
And tired of feeling like this
Day 58: Today I Felt… determined
No more wallowing in my misery, no more stuck in this rut. Pushing through.
Day 54: Today I Felt… like returning
Did an iteration on day 49. Was playing around with some numbers and this ended up looking like the blades of an airplane engine. Figured it was fitting for my return home, from home.
Day 50: Today I Felt… halfway
Day 50! halfway there! and what better way to commemorate it than by being back in Colombia to celebrate one of my good friend’s wedding (and some much needed time off).
Day 46: Today I Felt… trapped
In vicious cycles. Round and round I go. I know better.
Day 42: Today I Felt… semi-romantic
It’s valentine’s day and even though I don’t necessarily celebrate it, I figured it was a good opportunity to use the theme to make something nice (meaning pink)!
Day 38: Today I Felt… trippy
Went to this artist talk featuring Peter Burr and got inspired by his trippy visuals, so decided to make my own for today
Day 34: Today I Felt… unfolding
So many paths are unfolding before me and there are so many routes I could take. I feel like I’m getting closer to a solid concept, but I need to start making decisions asap.
Day 30: Today I Felt… inquisitive
Trying to look at things from all angles and perspectives to see if a spark of inspiration grabs hold.
Day 26: Today I Felt… magical
Going to the Hall of Magic Exhibit today, so I’m feeling a big fantastical. Love me some magic, and I’m killing two birds with one stone as I also think will be good for thesis research.
Day 22: Today I Felt… determined
I’m determined to channel my thesis anxiety into work instead of succumbing to it. So I will work on my thesis, even if just a little bit, every damn day. Fingers crossed it pays off!
Day 18: Today I Felt… comradery
The women march was today and millions not only in the US, but around the world, came together to show support, unity and comradery. Never have I been happier to be part of history <3
Day 14: Today I Felt… indecisive
Couldn’t figure out what to do for today, can’t figure out what to do with my thesis… and down down the rabbit hole we go.
Day 10: Today I Felt… serendipitous
I’ve run into my friend Gal two days in a row now, randomly. Today, we ran into each other in Washington Square Park and decided to have lunch together from a food cart and sit in the park. It’s been nice! I hope serendipity keeps being good to me.
Day 6: Today I Felt… celebratory
It’s my birthday! I feel like celebrating… and not spending too much time on this. So creative coding it is, using the rune.js library.
Day 2: Today I Felt… disgruntled
I got a google home delivered and 1) it won’t understand my accent and 2) the interface is terrible. First world problems, I know.
Day 97: Today I Felt… Excited
So close to the finish line I can almost taste it. Three days to go!!
Day 93: Today I Felt… Elevated
Gotta rise to the challenge that is these last three weeks. So much to do, but I’ll get it done. BRING IT.
Day 89: Today I Felt… Cyclonic
Feels like I’m spinning my wheels without getting anywhere and I’m coming very close to destroying everything in my path. Gotta find that happy place.
Day 85: Today I Felt… like reconstructing
Didn’t love the camera angle from yesterday’s render, as I felt it didn’t highlight the scene the right way. I rearranged the camera and reconstructed the scene so that it would look better. I’m much happier with this iteration!
Day 81: Today I Felt… Helpful
A friend was applying for an artist residency so I helped him out with this model to get his idea across. Fingers crossed he gets it!
Day 77: Today I Felt… Stuck
Letting go: easier said than done.
Day 73: Today I Felt… Revealing
Presented my thesis idea today, seemed to be well received! (I also keep surprising myself by certain reactions or emotions that catch me off-guard ::sigh::)
Day 69: Today I Felt… excited
I think I figured out my thesis. FINALLY. Gotta roll up those sleeves and get to work now.
Day 65: Today I Felt… shifting
No more crying over spilled milk. Taking a break to re-calibrate and re-energize. It’s working already.
Day 61: Today I Felt… fluctuating
Back and forth I go. Hopefully this will stop soon.
Day 57: Today I Felt… fragile
Not feeling too sturdy lately. Comes in waves. This too shall pass.
Day 53: Today I Felt… like dancing.
Wedding time! can’t think of a better reason to dance than to celebrate a dear friend getting married with more of my dear friends. Amazing couple of days with an amazing group of people <3
Day 49: Today I Felt… like an illusion
Was running around with my head in a million different places. Felt like I was here but I wasn’t at the same time. Took an hour of much needed time to get myself back.
Day 45: Today I Felt… revelatory
Did a poetry exercise with master Daniel and a small group of people and it was so great. Intimate, thoughtful, and a lovely time.
Day 41: Today I Felt… opportunistic
Waiting for the activation code for my C4D to come through so I couldn’t use it today. I’ve been waiting to play around with After Effects and this seemed like the perfect opportunity to try it out.
Day 37: Today I Felt… iterative
Wasn’t particularly in love with the way yesterday’s exercise came out, so decided to give it another shot with this new plugin I found. I love the way this turned out!
Day 33: Today I Felt… mapped
I’m putting everything down and mapping it so that the beeline path will take me to a place where my heart sings. Show me the way, creative process.
Day 29: Today I Felt… open
Open to suggestions, new ideas, recommendations and everything that comes my way. Hopefully, this sunnier disposition helps.
Day 25: Today I Felt… indifferent
Wasn’t really feeling it today so I just chose a tutorial that looked cool and did it. I actually really like the way it turned out! I just wish it wasn’t associated with such a ‘meh’ word.
Day 21: Today I Felt… like multitasking
School started, we had thesis class and half-way through the speaker presentation I realized I hadn’t done my 100 days. So I multitasked and made this while she finished speaking. oops.
Day 17: Today I Felt… conflicted
Inauguration day. I feel both defeated and hopeful. I’m gonna choose to focus on the latter and stay active and engaged for the next four years. As Obama said in his goodbye letter: “yes we can.”
Day 13: Today I Felt… lucky
Again with the love-y emotions because of this awesome weekend that just wrapped up. Also, it felt very fitting for #13 to be lucky.
Day 9: Today I Felt… reflective
Mulling over some things in my head. And, I also wanted to play around with some textures.
Day 5: Today I Felt…malleable
Couldn’t figure out what to do so instead I found a tutorial that seemed interesting and did that. I adapted.
Day 1: Today I Felt… relieved
I decided on a concept for the class, and I’m pretty happy with it. I worked on C4D for several hours trying to create a ripple effect and couldn’t get it to work, so I switched to code using the Rune.js library. Not feeling that relieved anymore.
Category: motion design, graphic design, 3D, 2D, programming, modeling
Date: April 2017
Toolkits: Cinema 4D, Processing, p5.js, javascript, Adobe Illustrator
Personal Highlight: To have found a tool I am completely in love with (cinema 4D) and use on a regular basis even after this project finished